Five Minute Friday – After

five minute friday afterIt’s Five Minute Friday, hosted by Lisa-Jo Baker at The Gypsy Mama.  Five minutes of free writing flash mob goodness.

If you aren’t familiar, the rules are simple.  Lisa-Jo Baker gives a single word writing prompt every Friday.   Each of us have five minutes to write and post.  No editing, no second guessing, no fancy stuff.  Just plain writing – straight from the heart. (click HERE for the official rules and details).  Then we go visit other participants and shower them with comment love.

Two weeks ago, the word was REMEMBER

Last week, I was celebrating Easter with family at Camp No-Fi.

This week, the word is AFTER.

Five Minute Friday

After.

After is good.  It means there was a before.  And if there was a before, there was a beginning.  I like beginnings.

after is goodBeginnings are good.  They are full of fresh starts and hope and newness.  They are a blank slate of expectations before the first mistake.

But sitting here, in the after, I feel emptiness.

I feel the empty spot between one thing in the next.  It’s like a pause in the play where they draw the curtains and change the scenery.  I sit there, in the dark, staring at the curtain and trying to imagine what those mysterious bumps and scraping noises mean.

And it is sweet.

After the party.  The lights come on, and all I can see is mess and hard work.  Clean the dirty things.

After the vacation.  All I can see is the mountain of laundry and the empty refrigerator.  Empty the full things, fill the empty things.

After we’re done here.  We can hurry on to the next thing.  Always looking forward, never looking at here. At now.

And it is bitter.

After confuses me.  It is the bitter and the sweet, the empty and the busy, the yesterday and the tomorrow.   It is what I choose.

As long as I see “after” as the space for another beginning, after is good.

how i see after matters

STOP.

Five Minute Friday

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I have a passion for encouraging weary worn out mothers to find joy in everyday motherhood and peace in unlikely places. I have two elementary school boys, one nerdy husband, and two cats. I have a strange fascination for bad puns, the color pink, socks, and books. I worry about running out of toilet paper, wine, and chocolate.. I serve an amazing God. I live an ordinary life filled with wonder.
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Comments

  1. hey, i thought that was well-put together and thoughtful as well. and quiet, the space was showing through. ah, for more of that.

  2. You shared this so beautifully. I was nodding in agreement as I read. Love your encouragement at the end, “As long as I see “after” as the space for another beginning, after is good.” All lovely! Thank you for sharing.

  3. Such a great post! Loved reading this, made me think.

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